Safar..

Of Choices and Changes

2010-08-07T23:54:00.005+05:30

Yesterday, I completed the first year of my first job.I had been thinking about this for quite some time, more so because I had been at home for the last one week without any work. I wanted to celebrate the occasion, and even left the office early.

As I sat in the auto I pondered, about how this entire year had been. I thought about the life I had been living in college before joining the firm and about the friends I made there. I remembered my optimism like that of a fresher who feels like winning the world on the very first day of the job. I remembered how the corporate world then, gradually started feeling mundane with every passing day and how I tried to retain my enthusiasm for enjoying the life I had. I thought about the first team of colleagues I worked with, about the excuses I made to be able to make it to the college reunions, about my transfer, and many more things.From people to places, it seemed everything was changing.

Swimming in a sea of thoughts, did I hit a question still unanswered in my mind. In the midst of the ever changing surroundings, there had to be something about ourselves that did not change. The thing about us that defined us. That something in each of us, which stays forever. 50 years down the lane, if we happen to meet again, what will it be that you would still be able to recognize in me?

Certainly, such a trait is present in everybody and needs to be identified. We are usually engrossed in the choices we make in our life, be it regarding career, higher education etc. and end up choosing the generally accepted option. I believe that any such choice should be in sync with our inherent quality more than anything else.

As for myself, I haven't figured it out so far. Probably it would take some time. But this journey of self discovery has surely begun! Meanwhile, as I stated earlier, I wanted to celebrate the occasion. So cheers to everyone as I sign-off to gulp some Absolut!

Its been a while..

2009-11-22T16:02:00.003+05:30

Its been a while, since I last wrote something here.

And meanwhile, a lot of things have changed. I have finished my college, have a new profession, a new city to explore. Life has practically taken a turn around. All those friends and people with whom I spent last four years of my life seems to have just disappeared somewhere from my sight , and its only rarely that you get to hear from them.

There were days, back in college, when life was fairly simple. Friends, hostel, stadium, occasional booze, nothing to worry about and nothing to fret over. It was like a dream when you don't have to care for anything and life was as easy as it could possibly be.

Bang! and suddenly you realize that your free time is over, you are kicked out of the heaven, and thrown to the real world!

Real world, If somebody would have tried to explain to me about this, when I was in college, I would have probably laughed it off, taking it to be some nonsensical-illogical-crap.

But the fact is , as I understand it today, real world is different and indeed challenging. Off-course, you still have the liberty to live the way you have always had, but you had dreams then , and real world is place to make them come true. You are supposed to make choices, act, do things, commit mistakes, crib about things you don't want, everything in the pursuit of finding your true self and adding those missing elements in your life which you crave for.

Deep down it feels its going to be long and good!

Immense Pleasure

2009-05-09T00:44:00.004+05:30

It gives me an immense pleasure to be back to blogging, thanks to two friends who told me how they relive and cherish every moment, about which they have written on their blog... Nice way to remember those memories... eh??

And yes it does gives me an equally immense pleasure to write a blog post, after being high, being senti, in the reminiscent mood, almost on the verge of extension, awaiting the result of a correlation which might just help me get my degree on time, and let me enjoy my sister's wedding!

I am glad..

Love these days, love my college life!

Insti Days

2008-11-18T17:26:00.003+05:30

The Otherside

2008-11-18T15:21:00.004+05:30

Some mornings are bound to be gloomy..

You get up, browse through the newspaper and the first thing you notice is that a major finance company just laid off 50 k employees! You are all wtf’s, as it suddenly strikes you “Wasn't this company coming for recruitment??"
Moving on with the morning, I went to the bog, while brushing, remembered the conversation I had with a senior the other day (on how a top financial firm goes about laying off its employees, in Bangalore):

Senior: It's not good dude!
Me: How?
Senior: Well, the manager comes to your desk, and asks you for a coffee. You surely go along with the manager. You come back realize that your system has been locked, and its password has been reset. Then, to explain things, your manager takes you out for a drive, which ends up exactly at your residence, with you being told “Get down and move on dear, best of luck!"
Me: Shit!
Though it’s not always that such thoughts come to my mind, but with a little less than two weeks before the placement session begins, it seems natural.

As if the fate had it this morning, I went down to the mess hall, only to find a branch councilor, disclosing that another recruiter has bumped placements this year. And he wisely advises "Listen machcha, it is worrosssttt max this time. Put fight for whatever companies that are coming. By the way, how did you write CAT?"
"CAT?" sounded like a perfect nail to the coffin-box, because I didn't write CAT on account of my application getting rejected. Inevitably, my appetite for the breakfast broke loose then and there itself, and I tried to cheer up myself and figure out other options.
Returning back to my room, feeling like not doing anything, I again picked up the newspaper.
As anticipated, it was flooded with articles on financial meltdown, layoffs, and market recessions. To add to the fury, even talks in the wing and peer groups eventually converge to the same theme.

Its obvious that the placements this time don’t guarantee to be a spectacle , but its just a matter of days and I'll be through with it, again on the other side . Till then, its business as usual. The only positives I can sense from here are that I'll still be from the golden jubilee batch of IITM, after all ours was the last batch to enter IIT's clearing screening and mains both, and the only passing out batch ever to face such a recession.

Countdown to Chinese Democracy

2008-11-16T19:26:00.006+05:30

Awaiting the release of sixth studio album of

Guns N' Roses, on 23 November.

7 more days to go.

wishCAT ;)

2008-11-16T10:58:00.003+05:30

On 16 November, 2008 , I was meant to write CAT.

Instead

On 16 November, 2008, I am writing a blog post on not writing CAT.

Perfect irony :)

A Hello ... After a long time

2008-04-13T00:22:00.001+05:30

Well, the feeling of talking to an old friend and that too after four long years (as in my case) is truly magical.It left me amazed, as I was able to talk to her so patiently and man I was able to recall even small things which were buried deep inside me.It was just terrific.

Well truly speaking , I was really trying to get back in touch with a few old friends, but dunno, whats with me , I never really have the courage to get back to them, not even to say simple words " hi , how are you ?"nways ..long time I guess..

So to get on with the story, it all started with an eventful day>>I was made the Vice President of the institute's E-Cell, followed by winning first prize along with fkd and bachcha, at wavez, the annual fest of naval architecture department, after which I went to stadium for a few quick rounds of running followed by a hockey match in Sangam and then hostel nite in Saraswati hostel( kind of a farewell party for passing out seniors of that hostel) and lastly celebrating moli bhai's festival with wingmates at CCD.(Phew!!! it really was eventful)
Even after a long day like this, when I was finally relaxing in my room, I was not feeling sleepy. Instead my beautiful mind was wandering somewhere.And then it stumbled to a few of my best pics.I browsed through a few more and finally collected the very best of them.Would have been the effect of the long and tiring day and music, that I beacme a bit nostalgic, edited them and posted them on Orkut.

Now the friend of mine, of whom I am talking about happens to be orkut, and even in my friend list.But orkut never really makes you "talk" to anyone.. all it does is help you "chat" with them which does not interest me much.May be I had been right. May be I was wrong.
The next day I received a message from her,admiring the pics and asking about my life in general.To be precise, I had posted a pic of myself with my sis in Bangalore celebrating my last bday, which she took it as me and my "chic" and her message went like this " Hi, nice pics on orkut, girlfriend banayee kya ?? ~~nice chic haaa ~~ and hws life??"
I was busy then , trying to mug for a midterm in one of my friends room, scheduled for the next day .It had been four long years that I hadn't spoken to her without any reason, I thought. And anyhow , I was not very much interested in mugging for that useless midterm. I packed, went to my room,made up my mind on the way that I will call her up.

I did.
"Hello"...
"Hi !@&*&" I said..
"Hi ...tujhe yaad aa hee gayee finally meri itne dino baad"she said.
I could sense that she was a bit scared as expected.
However, I was able to cool it down and what followed was a conversation lasting 17 minutes and one of those I'll be remembering for a long time...